I find the future very frighteningly daunting. I mean, sure I also want to grow up, just like everyone else. But the uncertainty of what the future holds scares me most.
I mean, everyday I sit in class, staring out the window wondering who I'll be, and it frightens me immensely that I don't know.
Often I tell myself I can't wait for school to be finished. I can't wait to start university. Then, I start to think about what doing this actually entails. It means I won't live with my parents anymore. It means I don't have teachers to spoon-feed me. It means that pretty much every decision I make will impact my life.
And then, after university, comes real life. Real life holds all the really scary stuff, like paying taxes and getting married. I don't know if I could share my whole life with someone.
I guess, I just wish everything would slow the hell down. We think high school is stressful, but it's probably going to be the least stressful moment for the rest of our lives. So we should go and live it.
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