Weird and wonderful

So I got my palm read the other day, at the Essenwood Flea market. My father's idea. I don't know if I believe in it, but I found it pretty interesting. Here's what she had to say: 

I'll be successful and I'll own lots of property. I'm only going to graduate at 27, and I'm either going to work healing people or with law. I must drive slowly and carefully until I'm 27, avoid heights and extreme sports until then. I will get married at 27 (I guess its gonna be a big year). I will have back/stomach problems, will fall in love with someone this year in Sept, I'm very sexual and naughty but I'll grow out of it, °̩'ll never look my age, my soulmate is either aries, pisces or Scorpio. I'll have two same-sex kids.

Next year is going to be a big academic year for me, and the results for that will become evident in 2015. I'll be in a hospital for a short period next year. 

I have a good 6th sense and a strong intuition, but I'm gullible. 

When I grow up....

10 years from now? Where do I see myself?
I was asked this question, and quite frankly I had no idea where to begin. 10 years from now I'll be 25. To compare then to now, I have to know where I am now. So for all of the topics: These are 2012, and these are 2022.

Relationships: Well right this second, I am single, but my Palm reader says I'm going to fall in love in Sept.
I want to be in a stable relationship, perhaps with a ring around my finger. I might be thinking about kids.

Career: I'm obviously a student.
I'm going to be a psychiatrist or a clinical psychologist, specialising either in Autism, Bipolar, SI, or just abnormal psychology in general.

Living situation: I currently live with my mother, step-father, sister and step-sister. We live in DurbanI want to live in my own house, possibly in Cape-Town.

So yeah, that's pretty much it.

All things great

I haven't posted for really long because I have been busy. I know that that is a pathetic excuse, but it's a true story.
I've had oodles and oodles of homework, projects, tests, and exams are coming up soon. Scary thought.

Anyway, today, at assembly, a clinical psychologist came to talk to us. She was telling us all about putting things in perspective, and she told us this pretty inspirational story, it went a little something like this:
Farmer Brown lived on his farm, quite happily, and he had his favourite donkey. This donkey and Farmer Brown were quite inseparable,  and it used to follow him around everywhere. Then, the one day, Farmer Brown went to take a look down this well, and his good ol' donkey followed him. Farmer Brown leant forwards, looking at this well, and his donkey did the same, but being top heavy, he fell in. Farmer Brown peered down into the darkness, but couldn't see anything. So he decided that the least he could do was bury the donkey. So he did. He went to go and get his sand, and spadeful by spadeful, he threw it in. Meanwhile, at the bottom of the well, this donkey was suddenly hit with a whole lot of sand. Confused, he shook it off, and stepped on it. Then came the next, which he shook off and stepped on. The donkey carried on doing this for a while, until eventually, the sand was enough so that he was right at the top of the well, where he simply stepped out.

How cute?
For any dummies who didn't catch on :P
well:
You are the donkey. The sand is your problems. Farmer Brown is life. When life throws problems at you, you just gotta stand up, shake them off, and move forward, using them to guide you.

My life. My happiness. My choice.

Throughout my life, I've been diagnosed with:

• ADHD
• Depression
• Giftedness
• SPD (Sensory perception disorder)
• OCD (more of a case of my friends diagnosing me than myself.

And, throughout my life: 

• My parents have each been divorced. Twice
• I've witnessed abusive relationships
• I've had my share of heartbreak
• I've been to 6 different schools (I'm 15)
• I've been through 5 psychologists.

But what I'm trying to say, is that I'm not letting any of these things affect my happiness because I believe happiness is a choice. No, I haven't had a white-picket fence childhood. No, I'm not perfect. But I'm happy. Happiness is a choice. Every moment is a choice. To live or not to live. And when I say live, I don't mean to be alive. I mean to actually live, and enjoy yourself and not merely exist.

Billie Joe Armstrong of Green Day once said: "You don't know what the future's going to bring. I mean, I don't have a f***ing clue.I don't know what the f*** i'm doing. I don't know where the f**k im going. I never f***ing do.But the important thing is sometimes to think about the future, but stay in the f**king moment at the same time"

I love this quote, because everybody either lives in the past or in the future.

What I'm trying to say is that my happiness is my choice. People can obviously affect it, but ultimately, nobodies going to make or break me except me. 

Its my life, and I choose to be happy. What do you choose?

Should the Right to Die be considered a right?

I was reading a book the other day, and this came up into my mind.

This is one of those topics that I am very undecided about. Someone once told me that they think that suicide is the most selfish thing someone can do, because they leave people to clean up the mess they've started and they've left people who love them.

But imagine yourself in the situation of having cancer-counting down the days till your own death, losing hair, feeling sick everyday. And the people who love you witness you dying. Is dying quickly not better for everyone involved?

When it's emotional pain, I think that suicide shouldn't be an option. There's so many other things to help you, even if you feel like there's nowhere to go.

I don't really know, I've never been depressed enough to even consider taking my own life, so I can't really say that I know it'll get better for someone, but what is life without hope?

Dr Seuss once said: Today you are you, that is truer than true. There's no-one alive that's you-er than you.

If that's not a reason to push on, then consider why you've held on for so long. Do you really want all the people you love-and there is always someone- to spend the rest of their lives asking themselves if they'd done something different if you'd still be here?

So yes, I do think that the right to die should be considered a right-but only succeeding a court case.

My new inspirational song

I know this isn't really the type of vibe of song I usually listen to, but someone who just went through a breakup played it for me, telling me it's their new theme song, and I think it's really motivational to anyone who's going through stuff. And we all are.

Stronger-Kelly Clarkson

ou know the bed feels warmer,
Sleeping here alone,
You know I dream in color,
And do the things I want. 
You think you got the best of me 
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone.
Think you left me broken down
Think that i'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong. 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean i'm over cause you're gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me myself and i
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, 
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean i'm lonely when i'm alone
You heard that I was starting over with someone new,
They told you I was moving on, over you, 
You didn't think that I'd come back, i'd come back swinging 
You try to break me but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger 
stand a little taller 
doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone. 
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause your gone. 
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me 
You know in the end the day I left was just my beginning..... in the end...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone. 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, Myself and I 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller 
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
I'm not alone

[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/stronger-lyrics.html]